Back to the drawing board

It's been a couple of days now since my attempt at running another Horton race. It was a 34+ mile run instead of 31 and I think it really psyched me out. In any event, once I did the math for a 17 mile loop in 3:30 I decided I couldn't do it and pretty much bagged it from the get go. It was a mental tug of war and not much fun. It's like the devil on one shoulder saying you can't do it and an angel on the other saying, you can do it, just try! Anyway, the devil won out and I gave up! I even reached a point where I decided I didn't even want to make the cut-off but wanted to just stop halfway. There wasn't much to worry about as I missed the cut-off by about 15 minutes! That's an eternity. It was very demorilizing as I thought I was in better shape after putting in so many miles but I guess there were too many junk miles thrown in that really didn't count. Needless to say, I was pretty discouraged and it really hit my on Sunday morning once it had sunk it. What do I have to do to be more consistant? After a few hours of feeling sorry for myself and just bagging the whole running thing, I realized that I just need to pick myself up, dust myself off and get back to work. I am planning on taking a break from running for a few days and will concentrate on resitance training and spinning and maybe even do a little yoga. I meet with my gyno tomorrow to discuss the results of my test from last week and go for an ultra-sound. It will be a big load off my mind once I know what we're dealing with. The unknown is always such a scary thing. I'm sure all is fine but will sleep better once I know for sure.
I just got home from a spinning class that I took after doing a resistance routine. The spinning was great and had lots of intervals in it so it was a good workout. I realized during the class that I really need to do this type of training. I think that along with some intervals on the treadmill will really help my stamina. I may even run a few miles on the treadmill in the morning just to get in a nice even paced run.
Anyway, I'm going back to the drawing board and hopefully something will click.